To look upon me you may never know,
As each day sees me come and go.
I may seem like your neighbor, or even you,
I may seem normal, but if you only knew.


You notice my cheer, you see my smile.
But I have a dark secret all the while.
It must stay buried, can't let it be seen.
Most wouldn't understand just what I mean.


Some would say that I'm insane,
Others that it's just a game.
Still others it's all in your head,
All of these I have heard said.


As I go on day to day,
I live life in my own way.
On the outside I must be bright,
While secretly I struggle with my plight.


I can't let them know,
I can't let it show.
The darkness has grown,
As I suffer alone.


Locked in this prison that is my life,
I know we all have struggles and strife.
I deal with it the way I choose,
Because to give in, means I lose.


All of this I must hide,
Must keep the pain locked inside.
As I struggle with each step I take,
My spirit, I will not let it break.


If you are aware of my pain,
That really gives me no gain.
But if somehow I make you smile,
Then my life is more worthwhile.

© Lynn Harris